01/18/2012

I just wanted to elaborate a little bit on the last one.  I’d rather save what I’m proud of for later, but I’ll say why I’m proud :) .

Yesterday we put on a show!  Honestly, we weren’t the most prepared.  Honestly, we weren’t perfect.  Honestly, we weren’t in a position we wanted to be in.  And I definitely wasn’t.

We were stressed, beat, and battered.  Not too long ago I was scolding my group and then scolding at myself for being such an incompetent leader and being a dysfunctional member of our group.  I didn’t give my all to this family unlike every other year and I didn’t have much right to vent out like that to them.

But we pushed through.  I think we were all scared, but yesterday at rehearsals I honestly thought we killed it.  It wasn’t the perfect performance choreo-wise, but we had fun.  I mean, nothing is better than going out there and performing our finale (something they had never seen) with everyone genuinely smiling.  Like, I messed up so much but I had so much fun with it.

We’re still working on things because obviously we want to get up to that point!  Make no mistake, we obviously don’t want to settle for anything less.  But I’m so glad that despite the stress and stuff, we had fun.

And I’m glad I’m having fun.

Edit:  And even if we didn’t get it, I would still be proud.  We legitimately put on a show yesterday and I look forward to us putting on a show these next two days.  Gaaaah, I’m so happy for all of us <3 .